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The Mourning Dream

by Peter Arvidson

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Stars 04:26
You woke up late this morning Your body senses warnings You stumble around for things but listen to me and know It's never too late to dream when everyone else is asleep There is a stubborn panic A rumbling inside your bones Somewhere off in the distance Comes a ruckus from the belly of the earth below Wake up, you're falling asleep again You know it's not fair Wake up, now what do you dream? When all your stars are falling down The lights went out in the attic This isn't quite how you planned it A celebration of the madness Now put your shades on, get your shoes on, we're about to leave the planet A lighthouse was built for your eyes to wander up it A certain kind of secret best kept will rise when your dead C'mon let's take control and dream up something better We'll color the air with all our crazy thoughts uncensored One day you will wake up a warrior and rise above You'll turn suffer into might, you'll find a way to stay alive Now all your stars burn bright
What's with the hype surrounding us You brought the fight, now I'll bring the punch Trust me when I say that we're going down, going down Haunted hallways as a past time Sippin' on dreams just to survive Celebrity sells, but all these dragons are making me melt And once we come alive tonight Internal pressure is building up outside Come bust us up, combustion sucks, but it's needed for good luck Prove to me, prove to me That we can build a stable machine That we can build a stable machine What's with the shame effecting us You brought so much but I fear your touch Trust me when I say we're over now, over now Tell me everything you're facing We're going back to the basics All in good time, I think I just saved my life Talk to me, we never sleep Without some means of thinking on our feet Science pressure, robotic gestures We've got to build a life full of pleasure Soon you'll see, soon you'll see We've got to build a stable machine We've got to build a stable machine Now where are we going? (Where are we going?) And where have you been? (Where have you been?) I'd like to thank this life we've shared for breaking us in For breaking us in Prove to me, prove to me That we can build a stable machine That we can build a stable machine
Little Fish 03:30
I am a little bit, I am a little bit denied, what am I for? I am a little bit, but not the very least bit surprised for what's in store Don't you take me at your word, don't you tell You're gonna take me at my word, what do you spell? In the throat, on the road, in the car, I can sell You're gonna take me at my word my autumn belle Going down the road Umbrellas pop open, abandon your focus Take me at my word, I will be here I'll be here to guide you, I will light the flame I'll let it burn up, i'll burn it inside you We're going to escape Inside my house I have my own rules Behind the glass I am the super fool I'm marking the exits, I'm marking the exits I'm twisting the bars and the monkey goes Far off into the summer shows Well what does he know? What does he know? I'm a little fish in the mix of this I'm a little fish on your party list I'm a little fish in the mix of this I guess you couldn't get A list? I'm the destructive lips that you want to kiss And I'm a little fish in the mix of this It's never the time to define what is mine In the shadows I roam until the day you come home Burn, burn, burn, burn Gonna' let it burn Gonna' let it burn Gonna' let it burn Let it burn Going to escape, we're going to escape We're going to escape, we're going to escape
You know you want to trust them You know you want to trust them all The greedy grinding of your pen Signs lives away, it becomes a literal fiction When my brainial levels are active Is when I use a bit more subtraction It's when I become less attractive Shack up breathing, X achieving, pistols drawn, pointed at the ceiling In the back you'll feel relaxed, you take a seat, you wear this hat Now reach into your holsters, gents, draw out your guns and love the resistance I never wanted to be the only one The only one who's not having fun I never wanted to be The only one awake in this dream Closing borders, hazy murders, subtleties of loving further Shotgun alleys, band-aid sorries, watering a dried up valley In the wild old west, a face off, It's a gun show to take the edge off Bring in more of what you got We'll have an old fashioned send off I am the moon and the stars I am the faceless shards I'll vibrate to where you are I never wanted to be An actor in this pointless story Some say, some say some say, some say There's a riddle in your head There's a demon, he loves you instead I'll shoot the moon and the stars Forgive my raging heart I'll survive my walk in the dark I never wanted to be An actor in this pointless story I never wanted, I never wanted to be I never wanted, I never wanted to be I never wanted to be
Sea King 03:03
Angel, pretty, believe, believe me I'm coming for you now Sugar, sweetheart, you're pullin' me apart You suffocate my heart Well I wanted to restart Well I deserve to be free on my own Well I am here, I came here to rock the boat Well I'd rather be rowing all alone And don't forget I'm king of the sea and it's time to sail home It's time to come home Darlin', baby, please forgive, please please please forgive me I swear it's the last time Well if that's true, why are you still alive? I'm coming for you now In the dark, who will hear you shout? Beautiful, who will hear you shout? I have you, inside, and out Bastard, selfish Please take your hooks out of my fins I know it's scary to lose control Well honey, I just don't want to die alone
From the back of an old car seat You saw lust and envy Driving down the interstate Drinkin' with your enemies In a flash I saw the meaning of it all You're never never never alone I have the shame and the past we've made You'll never never never go home Now promise me you'll forget my name The very next place that you saw Was a castle in the sky And when you arrived a voice came up He whispered "you're alive" Lower the gates and let me in I'm running for my life "Well please come right in, stop running, You're just in time" In a flash I saw The lights beyond the walls I am tired tree, I am standing here nuzzling the breeze What do you want from me? We've got the royal disease We're just sittin' here playing cards I think it's time to leave the bar This old song we sing is a pity The stars they always say that "What you get is fitting" I'm never never never alone Forget your shame, and the past we've made I'll never never never go home I promise you i'll remember your name My heart feels like nothing here is real My soul explodes with silent colors and restless chills
Well I waltzed onto the floor with a dance like any other I was looking for a friend not just another lover A salute to the guys that even ever tried to bother With that red hair burning fire set everything a flutter And then I start my slightly struttin' stride Over to you as two sweaty salty bodies collide My hands started dirty dancin' lips moved with what I call attraction I want you, gotta' have you, honey, baby I got you Come on and turn me on (I wanna' turn you on) I want the feeling of you (Baby don't you stop) I want you out of control, I need you wet for the show Whatever makes you feel whole, until you explode Siren my love, I want to take you Innocence in my throat was trying to save me (Baby what's wrong?) I told you its a joke, I said I'm just feeling lazy (Come on baby please?) And so we sat up and smoked, I was nervous to the bone, I told you I want control and stay away from my soul I'll take what I want before you try to play me We crashed through your apartment door (Uh, huh) Against the wall, remove your clothes, behind the fridge and on the floor I want you, gotta have you, honey, baby I got you I spy with my hazy brown eyes a quaint little bedroom that's lookin' pretty nice I sigh with a Cheshire smile a fancy little thing that really wants to get wild "Mister don't you bullshit my bullshit" Honey I got other entertainment "Well I guess I really shouldn't complain then" Well sink, line, and hooker I really got you baited Siren my love I wanna' take you home Take you home
I'm not afraid to say my name The waters wait for you I can't explain what it means to fade Awake I was painting shades Laughing with friends inside of tents This song could end but who wants that? Across a wire, stretch the seas A land of phantoms loving me Far away the brightest glare Telegraph please take me there Somehow I have wilted Somehow I feel strange Somewhere I existed Somehow not the same Somehow not the same Solitude is born Shaping up the skies Echoed through a horn Well I am still alive, where the hell is my prize? All the static acrobats seeping through the cracks I am still awake And I still can taste Sudden comfort, easy comfort Surely I must suffer A sexy hand grenade to my head Well I don't know but I can feel it detonate my friends Creepin' up to the hero's shore I can wash away the storm With a snap and a pop Well I just push you to see how much you've got I can say my name Not the same
Take the long way home and drive all night Take the long way home until the street lamps fade Tell me who's alive in a world so foreign Tell me who will shine in this sick new order Tell me once, tell me to hide again I told you twice, that you're not my friend Well I can fix, I can stitch the ends You'll break apart when I'm missed And I, I will not be found Down the block with all the cool kids in town No I'll be in the back doing my own stuff Well you can always count on me when things get a little rough We're breaking the sun, your story works well Not easy to share, tell me Are we having fun? I'm having all kinds with my white lies
The night took us away To a place where we felt safe It wasn't a brutal assault But it hurt enough to end us all The light wasn't on our side You only have this one time To get it right, why don't you confide all your secrets inside my mind Inside my mind There was a place way out west That held a restless ghost dripping sweat Slowly rising, we felt assured It was a pretty scary thing that we all observed Hollywood won't hold me down No, 'I've got stars buried underground Lonely thoughts going on and on I really think its for the best that I got lost What do you say when the colors change? What do you do, when you lose your cool? What do you say, when reality fades? What do you cry, when your music dies? When your music... Well I won't, I won't, I won't be like the rest I will, I will, I will, I will start out fresh I have, I have, I haven't messed up yet I will, I will, I will, I will be my best Inside my mind
Sheets 03:13
They're coming to get me as I set the rose on fire Standing up still, i'm standing up still The night's ending early and you've still stuck around Do you know where we go when we burn up? Will the world still turn by sun up? Do you recollect, did we collect, all this emotionless, nonsensical bullshit? Can you define? The line where it stops, can you shake it all off and say "No thanks i'm done, i'm gone out the door" I've been here before, well Time and again when you go to sleep Do you have a friend, does he bring his own sheets? I'm willing to bet you wouldn't work for free So why'd you do it for me? Well up in the rafters where we always sat and played Chanting up songs of days long gone We're telling our fortunes and selling our ideas Of a future that's so unlikely, well your love was so unlike me Do you recognize the sad disguise, those pitiful eyes are here to suffocate your mind I hope it feels like an uncomfortable glove, fire hell from above A superior drug, that gets you so high, well And now you've lost your wing And now you've lost your wing Why'd you do it for me?


The debut studio album of singer and songwriter Peter Arvidson. A musical journey about growing up, confronting your demons, dealing with loss, and surviving through existential chaos. The Mourning Dream's 11 songs combine elements of alternative rock, emo, and pop punk.


released January 4, 2014

Mixed, mastered and produced by Stephan Hawkes at Interlace Audio, Portland, OR.

Vocals/Gtar/Bass/Keys performed by Peter Arvidson
Drums performed by Dan Lawrence
Backup vocals performed by Russell Stafford, Travis Williams, McKenna Rose, and Sean-Michael Berahmand
Additional lead guitar and bass work by Stephan Hawkes
Viola performed on Sea King by Nick Damian

Album photography by Jessica Lince Photography
Album front cover artwork by Michael Morris and David Starck

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"Peter takes the infectiousness and melodic sensibilities of pop music, blends it with the chiming coolness of indie and then delivers it with just enough rock swagger to create a sound that feels uniquely his own." - entropymag.org/peter-arvidson-a-new-wilderness/ ... more

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